Below are the most recent 6 friends' journal entries.

Wednesday, December 30th, 2009
fluffychicken05	10:26p	Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough... I don't wanna lose you, I don't wanna use you just to have sombody by my side And I don't wanna hate you I don't wanna take you But I don't wanna be the one to cry That don't really matter to anyone, anymore But like a fool I keep losing my place And I keep seeing you walk through that door But there's a danger in loving somebody too much And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust There's a reason why people don't stay where they are Baby sometimes love just ain't enough Now I could never change you I don't wanna blame you Baby you don't have to take the fall Yes I may have hurt you But I did not desert you Maybe I just want to have it all It makes a sound like thunder It makes me feel like rain And like a fool who will never see the truth I keep thinking something's gonna change But there's a danger in loving somebody too much And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust There's a reason why people don't stay where they are Baby sometimes love just ain't enough And there's no way home when it's late at night and you're all alone Are there things that you wanted to say Do you feel me beside you in your bed there beside you where I used to lay And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch There's a reason why people don't stay who they are Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough Baby sometimes love just ain't enough (Comment on this)
Monday, December 28th, 2009
fluffychicken05	9:53p	I hate this... I found out via Facebook yet another person I went to elementary/high school with is pregnant (and married). I hate my life. It just always makes me feel like I'm so behind everyone in just growing up. Even though I know never getting married, or even having a relationship, is the best thing for me, but I still feel some sadness I'll never get the traditional family experience. Not to mention I'll never get use those expectant mother parking spots. How fucking fair is that??? I wish I could create special Turner Syndrome parking spots...People act like I shouldn't ask for breaks for my conditions, well no asking for breaks for yours. You have to stand or walk, TOO bad. You chose to get pregnant... (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 26th, 2009
fluffychicken05	3:50p	"What has happened to my life??" I was watching this countdown of the best 90's songs and Hanson was on and they were talking about how they are all married and have kids now, and the guy on the show was saying, "The Hansons are all married and having kids, and I made noodles last night. What has happened to my life??" This is just how I feel. I mean since 1997, year of Hanson, the Melrose Mass Exodus and I graduated elementary school, I feel like so much has happened to other people in that time and my life, not much to speak of, again as I mentioned, partly because I am still stuck in the past and feel like NO time has passed since than, even though it's been almost 13 years now. I know it's partially my fault, you have to make things happen in life, but still just eye opening in general. Also, got a wii fit for Christmas, now I can bring myself to work out on it, but if only I had the will power to change my eating habits, which I just never do.... (Comment on this)
Friday, December 25th, 2009
doragon_baburu	12:59p	MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! I am celebrating with some Mobil Suit action. Hey, I am using Garma's Zaku II, its red,, so its Christmasy. Yup just me reaking havoc on the Fedral Forces...Merry Christmas Earth Federation MWAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 24th, 2009
fluffychicken05	1:53p	Men want to father their own children... Still not completely over this cold, had to deal with family drama, and on top of it all, I think this is going to be a pretty skimpy christmas in terms of both giving and receiving. Due to the aforementioned cold, I don't have the energy to shop and figure out what the hell to get people that I normally would. Also, I hate going to the stores a couple days before Christmas. I was at WalMart in Towson last night, and it seems like everywhere I turned someone was in my way or I was in their's. Fucking ridiculous. I would like to make a plea. If you are NOT shopping for Christmas gifts, and shopping for other random shit like groceries, to the fucking grocery store for your milk and detergent and shit. The stores are already too crowded. Thank You. Also, I know the cashiers are trying to be curteous, but after being out in 17 degree weather sick, being rammed into by about 50 carts in 2 hours, and having to stand in line for a half an hour with people frequently trying to get by me, I am just not in a conversational or even good mood, especially don't sit there and say, "wow, look at how long the line is getting as you SLOWLY scan my items. Again, thank you. This has been a Christmas Eve message for anyone doing last minute shopping. Also, I think I am going to give up using Facebook. A) People want to friend me who I really don't want to friend back, B) Whenever I do post a message about what I am up to, I rarely get a response or comment. I guess I am just not that interesting. No one really cares what's going on with me anyway, it seems. Sometimes I feel people go out of their way to ignore me, so hey I no longer feel bad about doing that to some people myself. Facebook is about keeping in touch with people, unlike LJ where I feel more like unloading and if no one responds fine, I get out my feelings just more for myself, C) My dad friended me. When your parents join Facebook, it's time to get the hell off, lol :D I mean I will still see what other people are up to, but intend to be fairly inactive... Also my dad made a comment I found REALLY insensitive while watching the show Teen Mom, we were talking about how this guy the one girl was dating was breaking up with her because he didn't want the responsibility of helping raise her baby. Not thinking about my situation, obviously, he goes, "men want to father their own children, they are selfish like that.." guess that screws me over than...even if I DID want a husband. Guess what-I want to MOTHER my own children, too, but I have no choice in the matter. Must be nice to at least have that choice. Then he talks about how Kerli, my cousins wife is probably a good mother and wife because she has a drug problem and has seen the lows and knows how lucky she is to have a great husband and kids. I thought, again, gee if I DID want a husband, maybe I need to start doing drugs, (dripping with sarcasm). Look at Michael on MP, sometimes men are just somehow too attracted to women with issues and ignore those who don't. It begs the questions, who is more admirable or a better person-someone who has made mistakes in life but turned their life around or someone who has never made mistakes? I mean, of the drugs, sex, and alcohol variety... (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 20th, 2009
fluffychicken05	1:19p	Writer's Block: New lease on life Was there a significant event in your life that helped define who you and caused you to re-evaluate your priorities? Submitted By itsnewyearseve View 646 Answers Of course having TS did. I had to first decide which was more important: my sexual development or growth (these days, luckily for younger TS girls, they have determined if they start GH soon enough, you can start horomone replacement therapy at a more nomal age without affecting growth, because it was still waiting to be approved, I didn't start GH until 8, so had to make the decision to wait on hormone replacement until 15) than of course had to reevaluate the situation about kids since I am infertile. I always wanted to pregnant and figured I'd have kids on my own, learning I couldn't, well I had to get used to the idea of adoption. Man, still have a cold. Couldn't come at a worse time, either, when I have holiday shopping to do, and I cannot help us dig out of this blizzard...plus I have a proposal due at work tomorrow.. (2 Comments |Comment on this)